Writer's Diary
6/3/26
Screened a rough cut of movie (in progress) that I made with my friend SW last night at the theater space; coupled with another film by another friend, which I loved. Both films were largely improvised; it felt like the beginning of something—I need technology has gotten to a point where good things can be made for very little money if rules are broken a little bit.
Afterwards a few of us we went to the bar and drank and talked til 1am.
There’s a line in Last Days of Downtown— “non entities are the most dangerous people” — that I think is one of the truest things in the play.
I have often experienced love as an escape from reality, but now I experience it as a grounding in reality, which is why, in Kierkegaardian sense, I look forward to marriage—which is a structural version of the reality principle (so maybe in a Freudian sense too).
E says I have to allow myself to feel anger; that I am too easy of a target for peoples’ pathologies. And I think this is true.
Happiness and peace are the same thing; they magnetize and co create one another. Love is the feeling generated by this binary turbine.
the Rohmer Cassavetes Hogg omens are good